the silentness moment in this foggy night

在茫茫人海，也许需要的是体贴。夜的宁静，我更看到那清澈的我。别人看不见的伤口，你不断让缝好的伤口再次脱线。我可以睁一只眼闭一只眼，当做什么都不知。也许，对大家都好。我，不爱争执。我会觉得很累。我只能说我不完美，达不到你的要求。我的对不起，不会再乱乱说。你不稀罕，那我也没关系了。

当我翻开圣经，读我该读的经文。。。是否失去友情，爱情，都上帝给的试炼？全世界的人都可以认识你，但仅仅些许的人进到你的新天新地？但，我想说的是谢谢，再多的问号，你的恩典早已超乎这一切。人与人之间，我不想再吵谁对谁错，现在的我，只想做好我自己的本分，更亲近你。别人要说，我现在不再在乎。就由你们说。我的生命可以飞得更远。因为有主。我可以失去一切，唯独不能是、失去主与我的同在。别人可以不懂我，但是上帝仅仅给予我真真正正需要的一切。

我懂，我不断地跌倒，至少还有勇气继续往前走。我亲爱的天父，我已经试过失去爱情，亲情，甚至是友情，听我的呼求，唯有你的怜悯再次怜恤着卑微的我。一切一切都成了脑海浮现一幕一幕的悲喜的交响曲。让我明白深深体会到，原来生命很多的高低弯曲的路，又有多少人真的明白你？每个人都有自己的故事，自己的性格，自己厌恶的东西。。。

我，真的只能说我很渺小。我没有别人说的宽宏大量，我只能说我还可以忍。别人说的自以为是，那也许是吧。因为别人都还是会自已为‘对’的是对的。那么我又何为此而毁了自己的快乐？既然是上帝让我不断更新，那我也该不断更新自己。

when i m wiser,i m older
when i m stronger, i m keep going on no matter what
so roar louder than the lion king
i live like an eagle soar in the big blue sky not a crowd.
i will be
i must be
it will be!

u doesn't have money because of gamble. I do my own project paper,u still throw many question to me. when I try to solve the problem,u reply me u dun know. I speak very softly to u, u mad at me and yell to me. I know I m not top student. but, I do try my best. if I m useless,let it be. I really tired. not only mentally and also physically. god,i really wanna a rest from u. there are nothing that I can do, except bow down my knee, n split my feeling out to you. my dearest god. I know I m weak,so give me the strength from u god. God show me the way when there are seems no way out. when the door are closed,open the another window for me god.> <

一首简单的歌，不必太多乐器。歌词驾驭着曲的感情。一点一滴的感情，堆叠着那隐约的感情。那编制的回忆，不必任何的开场白。只要心里还有丝毫的不舍就会勾起，那曾经哼过的歌曲。

我，不再伤心。因为我的伤心已经到心肺撕裂。当我在彷徨的时候，别人的安慰，才让我明白是你不够爱我才会这样。只要有小挫折就会经不起考验。
他，让我重复温习，以前的我，是如何从恋爱到放手。现在的我，真的学习到要忍着痛， 祝福和感谢，对我而言，真的不容易。

我明白，我对你只有感谢和祝福。这样，我才能得到释放。他不再爱我都成为了历史 。 我只是偶尔还是会想起他。但，此刻的我，听了你爱听的歌，我的心会会心一笑，只有温暖。
因为我明白，那时要和你一起的我，心里已经告诉我，爱的滋味都是酸甜的。
对我而言，你说分手，我承认那真的真的非常痛，甚至没胃口吃，不想玩，不想说。至少，我很珍惜，这段感情。我身旁的人太疼我了。他们陪着我，让我的心痛和眼泪不再压抑。

我很开心，上帝给我疼我的人。我失去一个不爱我的人，我会一样祝福他，至少幸福过。我的微笑有苦而带甘，泪里也有喜乐。

爱与不爱之间，只要自己看到自己拥有的，伤痛一时，其实是可以的，但我要珍惜疼我的人~

ur way is higher than my way

I never thought that u r so suitable with me~

At the 1st time,i know I am loving with u, n u did too~ when we together there are many thing that I need to learn to go thru all of the problem. I need to understanding ur habit, ur attitude, ur view about life and also pray to god to handle all of this~ bcoz I m just a human being.
I miss u...n no wonder u..but,i am touch what u do for me~ur sang for me, accompany for a little while when u r buzy.i can feel it that u r caring so much ~ i can being the 1st person to caring you, I dun mind it that I text u 1st, coz I know u r busy. I can understand ur situation.^^but , after u done ur exam,u need to take turn to caring me ~ haha
u r so independent ~me ? i am rely on you so much~u want me being more independent~maybe that is true . n I will try to do all my best to live my life for god n also wanna be more better to become ur loves one.
my panda, my bee, my pig, my penyangat, my boo, my sweet heart, my darling~ haha ~our relationship start because the name of DAR~haha~what a funny jokes that u said DAr is DARAGON... xD haha u r my panda,when u say u sleep early always on 7pm~i love u just the way u r. haha~ u become the bee, when I am ur honey~haha~ every name has their own story~hehe
u r my pig, I m yours.haha~ when both uf us love laying in bed~haha~a temptation makes us fall asleep~no study~xD....

now we are work hard to our academic,thax !u still no leave me behind~when u willing text with me,i m appreciated it...MGBU...........my love~

berpantun-pantun sahaja...xD

hmmm~here!that is my pantun...xDto describe my feeling

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haha~just got a feeling to write a pantun.haha~

今天，才刚考了一个科目。因为先前我都在嬉戏，完全没有全力地专心读书。但我知道原来我很多都不会做，我明白，那是我没为自己真正负上责任。路边花朵在掉落，我的心情亦明白时间的残酷。风不断的吹，我依然还在原地。曾经那懂得不是一切都是理所当然的心，不知是谁丢弃了。我不断享受玩乐，肩膀的重量，我视而不见。我今天明白，虽然考卷答得很差，但我看见了我的自觉。回头看一看，心里也会心一笑。我更加明白失去还是后悔，未必是心痛，其实能让我看见，以前努力的我，现在的我也该让我的道路走成幸福。也许，会很辛苦，也会很幸福。因为我知道我要的是什么。

人都是需要经历，好让经验被累积使我走更长的路。

我不能保证，我不会再被安逸的生活被吸引，但是，我求上帝赐给我那个更亲近主的心，明白主在我身上的美好旨意。因为我不完全也不完美，我需要主牵着我的手，一步一步地走向主的恩典之路。我要别人也能感受得到神的美好和恩典，让看见我的，我走过的地方都能留下主的祝福。也叫人看见我的生命乃是主的作为。

a daily life in form 6....

a form 6 student is not easy as i thought after take spm result...but,no matter what hectic life in my study life,fortunately god never leave me alone to go through all if this...sometimes,i still being do something without direction.it made me feel dizzy and confused am i wrong to become form 6 student?all of this questions,god guide me to know how to become more diligent and being respondsible with my duty and makes my time management become more systematic..i still carry on all of this..it is not easy and not hard too...but,it being hard when i forgot god will always standby me,courage me with his words in the bible.
god always embrace me when i am praising him that i am  in trouble or feeling happy that ur mercy never disguise.
you!give me a lot friends that always stay with me,support me without bored.what a pretty life i have.hehe.
i know there are still some imperfect way in my atitude.
i anger that sometimes why  i'm feel you are not near.but,god u teach me to obey to serve you...hm....ur plan on me was amazing grace that u had give me to during my daily life...when something not going smoothly as i thought,you teach me waiting that you will arrange all of the stuff that i cant solve.
A foggy night,but,ur love still enough warm to me~

Halleluyah~with broken english...haha~
seek ye 1st the kingdom of god and his rightenous,and all those things that he will added unto you~god loves you~